Thursday Thoughts

I’m thinking of changing this to Thursday To Do’s. Every time I sit down to write my ‘Thursday Thought’ post, I have to refrain myself from making a To-Do list, and all the goals I want to accomplish. But, I need a place to randomly express my thoughts… and this gets to be it, and if it turns into a to-do list, it’s my thoughts so it fits :) Not like I’m really that concerned about it not.

This week, I’ve been thinking a lot about our home. It’s not ‘ours’ so to say as we are renters, but I would like to make it feel more like ‘ours’ as I’m sure we’ll be here for a while. So I think I want to go back to my last idea, a LONG time ago, where I wanted to take a room a month to paint, decorate, and make it feel like home - the home I want it to be, not a temporary establishment. I’m thinking of just biting the bullet and painting - it won’t cost that much and it would make it sooo much better. Granted I would have to pull the vinyl lettering off of the wall and then put it back, straight. Oh, and I would have to paint behind the fish tank… hmm that might not be so easy… I should do that before Mr. B leaves town so he can pull it out for me… I’m going to re-arrange the living room again, and I’m going to take all the stuff off of the walls to re-hang it differently.

Kitchen - repaint, and I need to figure out how to get hard grease off, it’s been there since we’ve moved in and I have tried EVERY THING and it’s just not coming off, any suggestions? I need to scrub the cabinets, and I want to take down the curtain over the sink and hang a pot/pan rack so I can have some more cabinet space. I need to clean the blinds - and organize my cupboards. I want to create one of these in my own style to go on the blank wall next to where the washer and dryer are and where the table is. I also want to hang some shelves in between the glass doors and the window above the sink.

Office - repaint, definitely. Find somewhere to move the coffee table to and organize the crap in and on my desk. Un-clutter the bookshelves and ‘fix the ceiling fan’

Living Room - paint. re-arrange the furniture (kinda back the way it was before). Paint the curtain rod. Make new curtains. Re-hang the wall hangings, spray paint the floating shelves. Hang some of my prints up, somewhere. Buy a new couch. Make a slip cover for the recliner, invest in a new rug. Can you spray paint in the house? I would like to paint the fish stand… but not sure that would be possible. Remove the old fish tank, paint the end table the same color I painted the chest. Get a low corner table for next to the door. Paint the window frame I have to make my key holder.

Man Cave - Print Mr.B silhouette on canvas and hang it, frame his posters, make a slip cover for the futon mattress.

Guest Room - Hang shelves, my prints, move in bed/dresser from master room. Organize closet for easier use.

Upstairs Hall Bath - I want to do something with it, but can’t because what I want to do would be more involved then ‘making it look like home’ as a renter :) So I’ll have to wait til we someday have a house of our own.

Master Room - paint. Invest in a new bedroom set (king sized, our full sized bed IS NOT working). New curtain rod, curtains, and re-arrange the furniture. I’d like to remove the door to the shower area, it just gets in the way, maybe just put up a ‘curtain’?

Throughout the whole house where  there is carpet I want to hire carpet cleaners to come clean it, it wasn’t cleaned before we moved in and well, it needs it severely bad. New carpet would be nice… but I don’t see that happening.

Mr.B doesn’t understand why I want to do all of this, but I just want a happy, bright, loving home. A place I’m proud to say I live. I want my home to be beautiful and reflect me, I’m tired of living in a hodge podge home. I’m thankful for what I have and that I have a home to live in, but want to make it beautiful, and I’m going to try to do it on a dime - so I can save money while doing it but still have it be the home I dream of having.

This is what I want my home to be:
”Is it a place of love, peace, and refuge from the world, as is the temple? Is it clean and orderly? As you walk through the rooms of your home, do you see uplifting images which include appropriate pictures of the temple and the Savior? Is your bedroom or sleeping area a place for personal prayer? Is your gathering area or kitchen a place where food is prepared and enjoyed together, allowing uplifting conversation and family time? Are scriptures found in a room where the family can study, pray, and learn together? Can you find your personal gospel study space? Does the music you hear or the entertainment you see, online or otherwise, offend the Spirit? Is the conversation uplifting and without contention?”

What changes do you want to make to your home?

Thursday Thoughts

There has been so much going on with Mr. B and I lately that I have slacked on several things:

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  My Project 365 will be lacking about a week
  Thursday Thoughts seems to have disappeared
  Laundry – yes, I wore two different socks to work, because they didn’t have clean matches
  I’ve finally made it to the grocery store…
  
  But now that our lives are getting under control… Let’s get on with this weeks Thursday Thoughts!

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  The country station I listen to here on the West Coast, just hired a new Deejay – his name is Joey, and he’s Australian, honestly…. really? I’m not quite sure how I feel about that. I mean I know Keith Urban is Australian - I guess it might just be funny to me…. but I do think it’s rather strange.
  
  I’ve had a ‘Green Monster’ every day for the past 5 days, and I’m addicted. In fact I only bought enough Spinach for a couple drinks because I wasn’t sure about them, but now I need to go back to the store for more. I get done drinking one and want to make another one but I resist. Tuesday night I made one with Mango because I ran out of Banana – ummm, not the best combo but I drank it anyway… but now I started drinking them with: Spinach, Carrots, Flax, Protein, Rice Milk, and at least one serving of fruit.
  
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  I watched Food, Inc. last week sometime and have been trying to throw a post together on it, but it’s taking more time than I thought it would… but it has made quite a large impact on my life lately, this whole week I haven’t eaten anything processed really (except for the V-8 fusion in a can) I feel better, I still need more sleep and water but for the past gazillion years I’ve been saying I’m going to get healthier, this is my year, I’ll start tomorrow, yadda yadda… and now it’s just something I’ve been doing. I went to the grocery store tonight and only bought items from the produce side…. No I’m not going vegetarian/vegan/or any other strange thing, just being more thoughtful about what I eat, where it comes from, and when I eat it.
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  I really want to write about work, but can’t at the moment - or probably won’t anyway - because I don’t want to ‘bring my work home with me’ but gah… it’s stressful and crazy right now - hopefully it will get better  soon
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  As a result of us cutting cable, Mr. B and I have delved deeper into the world of the Instant Streaming Availability from Netflix (we love Netflix by the way - it is AMAZING) - and we watched the whole series so far of The IT Crowd - it’s a hilarious British comedy that I am ready to watch all over again. I do wish I had the capability of remembering things I hear so I could quote them back, several people I know can do this and apparently it is not one of the talents I was blessed with.
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  We’ve started playing a new game, Puerto Rico, with the M’s on Monday nights for FHE - LOVE it, LOVE them. It’s a great time. In my weird quirky way my favorite thing I like about this game is everyone gets their OWN GAME BOARD! Ha! I can organize and keep straight til my little heart is content!
   
  That’s pretty much all the random stuff in my head that I felt the need to get out on my thought Thursday, I suppose it’s not as enlightening as they usually are, but oh well, it’s my blog and my brain…
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Patience and Hope

It’s been on my mind a lot lately. I’ve written this post a gazillion times. I’ve deleted  this post a gazillion times. I’ve drafted it many times. This is my little piece of the world. This is my little place to let it out, have my say, be me. So today is more of Thursday Feelings / Emotions / Get It Off my Chest.

I want to be a mother. I’m preparing every day to be a mother. I know everything is in the Lords timing, I need to have faith - be patient - do my part and one day it will happen, I’ll be able to bring home a beautiful child and begin the journey of being a mother, but until then my heart aches whenever I think about becoming a mother, I can literally feel it yearning with the desire and the hope that one day, one day I’ll have the dream. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I pray so hard that Heavenly Father will bless us with children, but most importantly I have faith always, that in time, we will be blessed with the honor and privilege of having children.

I want to be a mother. I love children. I love holding children. I love playing with children. I love being with children.

I say I want but really what I feel is the need to be a mother.

As I keep striving to be a better wife; striving to keep a house of order; striving to become a better me - one day I hope I’ll have the opportunity to strive to raise children in righteousness.

But I know that this depends on me, I’ve never really wrote about it but maybe it’s time to - I know that having children depends on me and what I’m willing to do. I need to become healthier. I need to focus on exercise and healthy food choices. Which I've been doing well on the food choices. I haven’t had soda in almost a month. I have had 2 Dr. Peppers, because I didn’t think I could do it or I had a bad day and I deserved it. I have since learned that that is the most ridiculous reason(s) I’ve heard myself say. I’m learning that I can do this and I do deserve this. I’ve lost 9 pounds so far, and I’m going to keep going - I have to, so that one day. I can be a mother to a precious child.

I will be a mother, one day.

”Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness.

But to keep going when the going is hard and slow - that is patience”

 

This life is hard and slow, but we must keep going, keep striving, and keep being positive. But there are so many rewards at the end as long as we stay positive, firm, and patient.

So I will be positive, firm, and patient full of hope and faith and I will make better choices everyday, continue to pray and I’ll be a mother one day.

Almost valentines Day

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So that is my front door, now. I would like to paint it white, like bright white but then again - it’s not my door.
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Thursday thought: Simple, Pure, and oh so true.

”Marriage is that relation between man and woman in which the independence is equal, the dependence mutual, and the obligation reciprocal.”

I’ve been thinking about marriage a lot lately and my spouse and love and blah - there is actually a post in draft about all of that … you want to know how many drafts I have? Right now about 11. I know I need to get busy and complete them, right? Well, soon.

I Am Scatter Brained

My desk is an absolute mess. To the left I have a stack of emptied envelopes from Christmas cards that I need to add the addresses into my address book, an overflowing recipe box that I need to transcribe, papers that need to be filed, magazines that need to be read, and my phone which is blinking at me impatiently to pick it up and just see who’s been sending me ‘lovely little messages’ (this is where I should purchase and use the sarcmark, if only I knew I would get enough use out of it, insert sarcmark again here – I’m pretty sure I would). To the right are my two cameras little bear and mama bear, a stack of papers that kept jamming in my printer, the human resource manual I need to read and haven’t done so yet, the printer I’m about to throw out the window, and other random items. I’m not going to say what’s directly in front of me as my computer screen is blocking it so it’s out of sight out of mind right?

So here I sit trying to unclutter my brain and remember what I was going to use for my Thursday Thought today, but while I’m trying to remember here are my 365 images from yesterday and today.


This made me smile bright and early in the morning while getting fuel, so of course I had to remember it.


I have been obsessed with trees I mean really in love with them. This isn’t the best photo but I do love me some trees and sun flare!

On to some random bits of information:
I just downloaded Quicken 2010 and it’s already causing brain overload and occupying way too much of my time this evening.
The fan on our heater has been running non-stop for the past hour… not sure why but blowing cold air and kind of annoying, not to mention the electric bill that it’s going to cause us to have.
I was accepted and got a spot in on of Nicole Hill’s photography classes she is having in San Francisco this year, so excited!
I was summoned for jury duty exactly one year after having it the first time (I postponed).
There is a huge difference in post-editing a picture from a point and shoot and a DSLR, I love Big Mama – she makes me happy.

Okay enough ramblings here are my Thursday Thoughts, also remember the it is delurking week – so be sure to say hi!

I’m not sure where I saw this quote, but I think I’m going to print it, frame it, and hang it in my room where I can see it everyday

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” ~Mark Twain

Yes I will change my daily outlook. Yes I will change my lifestyle. Yes I will stop thinking and start doing. Yes I will find me by hoisting up my ‘sails’. I will explore, dream, and discover. I’m only 26 and I already am disappointed by things I didn’t do – so here’s to doing things never to say, ‘I wish I had’ ever again.